It's been a LONG time.

It's been so long, that I am surprised to see I even still have ANY followers. I am sorry for being away like this. I have had some pretty crappy things happen in my life (to me and to those I care about) over the past few months. and just have not wanted to burden all of you lovely ladies with all of the drama. I didn't forget you, though. Have thought of you all often. I hope to get back to posting here again on a somewhat regular basis. We'll see what happens. Hope you all are doing well. (((Hugs)))

So much for "tomorrow."

I never got around to finishing my last post and now none of that even seems very important. We drove almost 500 miles round-trip on Thanksgiving so we could see my boyfriend's Dad in the nursing home. We took our dog and cat and had a really nice visit. The pets really cheered his Dad up. I took a ton of pictures and he was all smiles. The following morning, just 12 hours later, we get a phone call telling us his Dad passed away in his sleep. He was 91 and 1/2. Totally unexpected, though. He seemed fine and in good spirits. You just never know from one moment to the next what can happen. That is why it is important to say the things you always meant to say while your loves ones are still here, because nobody knows when you won't be able to say those things anymore. *Sigh* 

Bits and Pieces

Okay... first off, some of you may have noticed that I added a music section to my blog... rather than make a new entry for each link, I have decided to just update the one entry as I want to share the songs. So I think that will make things a bit easier. ;oP Anyway, I guess I better update everyone on what happened with the surgery... it didn't happen. Not yet, and maybe not ever. :/ As some of you know, I was having some MAJOR anxiety over being put under anesthesia. So... I am on my way to the hospital on the morning of the 28th and I start having a panic attack. Then I developed chest pains (like I often get with anxiety/panic.) Well, I made the mistake of telling the nurse and it was total chaos from there. They decided to admit me into the hospital overnight so they could run gobs of tests on my heart. I had 2 ekg's done, 2 echo's, bloodwork, hooked up to a heart monitor, etc. It was the first time in my life that I ever spent the night in a hospital. Well, all of the tests came back normal. BUT, they wanted to do a stress test. I had NO problem with getting on a treadmill or doing any other exercise, but NO WAY was I letting them inject any dye or stuff into my veins. So, with the refusal of that, they finally allowed me to go home. (By the way, I also found out while I was in there that I have sleep apnea... loverly!) So, I was happy to go home, because it was Halloween and I was looking forward to handing out awesome goody bags to all of the little ghouls... HA! We had 60 bags and ended up having like 6-7 trick-or-treaters! OMG! Lol. That was terrible! Okay... I have more to tell, but it is late and I have to finish up the laundry, so I will continue this tomorrow... probably in this same entry to keep things organized, ;) G'nite, all!

3-Ring Circus!

That is what my life has been lately. I have so much to write about that I really do not even know where to begin. I hate when life gets this way, because I start to withdraw from everything and everyone. I just get so overwhelmed with trying to catch everyone up on what's been going on, that I tend to "vanish" for a while and that isn't fair to those who are concerned about me. So, I apologize once again for my absence. :/ I have to collect my thoughts so I can post without sounding like a babbling idiot. I will be back as soon as I can think straight. Hope you are all doing well!

Ignorance is not always bliss...

First of all, I would like to thank those of you who told me about the coffee mugs. ;) The funny thing is, almost as soon as I asked the question, I got an e-mail saying I got one! I was shocked and then saw that it was because I commented on other blogs. How cool! :) Next line of business... can someone please tell me how to put photos on my pages? I don't see an upload button anywhere when I am posting, so hope I don't sound too ignorant! ;oP I have to say that I am really enjoying this site. I finally found someplace (online) that I feel I fit in, can talk about what's on my mind and am still accepted for who I am without a bunch of bashing and ridicule. That really means a lot to me, so thanks to all of you for making me feel welcome here. :) (((Hugs)))

Welcome to PNN!

Hello, everyone. I am new to this site, but not to blogging. I will post something more interesting when I am not so tired. ;)

Remember me?

I feel like I am never going to get anywhere with getting to know people here. My life has been crazy madness and my depression has been getting the best of me, along with my anxiety.

I am scheduled for surgery in the very near future and I totally do NOT want to go through with it.

I HATE needles (although bloodwork doesn't bother me, go figure!) and I LOATH the idea of being under anesthesia and having no clue of what is going on around me.

Any of you feel that way?

Have any of you had any surgeries? If so, were you scared, nervous or calm?

Thanks in advance to anyone who replies.

P.S. In visiting some of your blogs, I have noticed that some of you have little coffee cups on the side of your pages... what are they for? I want some! LOL! ;oP

Paper or plastic?

I'm not talking about the famous question asked at supermarkets nowadays. I'm talking about journalling. :)

When talking about your deepest, darkest, most personal thoughts, do you prefer the good old-fashioned paper and ink journals, or the modern way of going online and typing your thoughts out for an audience (or yourself, if your journal is private?)

What do you think are the advantages and disadvantages of online journalling, as opposed to paper and pen?

Do you tend to hold back in your online journal for fear of ridicule or criticism? How about your paper journal? Do you hold back for fear of someone finding it and reading it, or do you just let it all out?

I'd love to hear all of your thoughts and views on this subject! :)

Television Therapy

So, now that I am finally somewhat rested up from last Saturday's ordeal, I think I can write here again. ;oP I don't really have anything exciting to write about at this time, but I didn't want to stay away too long and make people wonder where I am.

Since I am here, maybe I will get a topic of discussion going. I have been watching a lot of tv lately to try and lighten my mood. The show I seem to navigate towards the most is "The Golden Girls."

What show do you like to watch when you want to get rid of the "blahs?"

Migraines, Sunburns & Bad Dogs, Oh My!

I apologize for taking so long to make a decent post. Things have been quite hectic around this place.

So anyway... yesterday we picked up my Mom and took her around to a bunch of yard sales. The town I live in was having their annual community day celebration and everyone got together to have sales. They also had a BBQ, a parade, and fireworks, but we didn't go to those.

Why?

Well, the sun and I just do NOT get along! I ended up getting a migraine about 3 quarters of the way through. Plus my feet & back were KILLING me, because 1.) I fell last week and hurt my back, and 2.) I wore flip-flops instead of sneakers to do all of that walking in!  I stuck it out, though, because my Mom never gets to go out to sales like that very often and I just didn't have the heart to ruin her fun.

Yadda, yadda... we stopped at the grocery store on the way back to her place and got some sandwiches for lunch. My head was still hurting after we ate, (did I mention that my feet were KILLING me?) so I went and took a nap for about an hour.

When I woke up and walked into the living room, they were all looking at me and going; "You got burned!" Loverly. I have very pale, very sensitive skin, so a sunburn isn't something I want, believe me!

So here I am, fighting a migraine, back and feet killing me, looking like a lobster, and feeling totally "blah," when I decide that I should probably go home and check on our dog and cat, as it was VERY hot yesterday and they were at home alone.

I get home and I take the dog outside, feed her and the indoor cat, and head outside again to feed the outdoor cat.

Quicker than lighting, the dog darts out the door and takes off on a dead run. Talk about major panic! (We live near a high-traffic road!)

Now I am fighting a migraine, back and feet killing me, looking like a lobster, feeling totally blah, and yelling/chasing after a dog with a big ol' bag of cat food in my hand!

Let me tell you... this dog can run... FAST! Half the neighborhood was trying to help me catch her, and I was getting closer and closer to a total meltdown.

She ran all up and down this street and the two streets on both sides of us and then over to the creek, before she FINALLY came back to me! And the whole time she was running, I could swear she was laughing her ass off! You could just see the "ha-ha, you can't catch me" expression on her face!

So yeah... that was my day yesterday... I should have stayed in bed.