Remember me?

I feel like I am never going to get anywhere with getting to know people here. My life has been crazy madness and my depression has been getting the best of me, along with my anxiety.

I am scheduled for surgery in the very near future and I totally do NOT want to go through with it.

I HATE needles (although bloodwork doesn't bother me, go figure!) and I LOATH the idea of being under anesthesia and having no clue of what is going on around me.

Any of you feel that way?

Have any of you had any surgeries? If so, were you scared, nervous or calm?

Thanks in advance to anyone who replies.

P.S. In visiting some of your blogs, I have noticed that some of you have little coffee cups on the side of your pages... what are they for? I want some! LOL! ;oP